Where have I been? And who’s Zuko Vauxhall?

Well well well. It’s been a year. I’ve almost but forgotten about this blog. I’ve come back, after being inspired to welcome myself back into the space that is WordPress blogging. I have new interests. New inspirations. And new stories to tell. Except for one – Nothing to Lose.

Some of you may remember when I was writing Shattered Childhood. That? Became a thing of the past.

Recently, as in the time I am writing this, I was heavily inspired by a fellow NaNoner on the Elsewhere In Australia region Facebook page, who had finished her book and went on into trying to get it to be published. Now, with a flame that burns hard in my soul, I seek to get myself published. Because I want to share with the world the universe I have created for almost 4 years in the making.

Now, you might notice that I’ve put in the title; “Who’s Zuko Vauxhall?”

Well, Zuko Vauxhall is my new pseudonym, instead of it being Connor R. Ryan. It feels more ‘me’ than Connor R. Ryan did. Also, because I already know a few Connors, including the many Connors I have in my stories.

I probably don’t remember most of you. But I will make a solid attempt to come back into the WordPress writer community. I want to interact with more people, be inspirational to others.

I’ll see you around~

~Zuko Vauxhall (Formerly Connor R. Ryan.)


Rising Stone – New Story on Wattpad!

Greetings everyone! It’s been a long while since I did an update. Suffice to say, it’s great to be back!

I’ve got some good news! Apart from Shattered Childhood being updated (slowly, I should mention), a new book has hit my Wattpad account! It’s called Rising Stone, and it’s set in the Werewolf genre. It’s based on a dream I had about werewolves roaming around an alternate version of Earth, and more importantly, it was based on how the pack in my dream inhabited the very school I finished attending.

With the help of a few friends, I started writing it. And now, the first chapter is posted onto Wattpad, and I will be very busy over the holidays writing it.

Here’s the link to said book: https://www.wattpad.com/story/93314376-rising-stone-book-1


Nothing to Lose: Shattered Childhood – Nothing to Lose updates!

AS you’ve guessed by the title, I’ve started working on Nothing to Lose, Book 1: Shattered Childhood!

This introduces Ace, a god, of his mysterious and haunted past plauging him during his duties. The head god, Ier, has told him to step down to relieve his past, to learn from it.

I’ve had a sudden burst of the need to write. Now, I will state that Nothing to Lose does have themes of child abuse, and needless to say I have to state that I DO NOT CONDONE CHILD ABUSE. So many times I get slandered for writing something I do not condone. Sometimes, the villain does things the writer would never, ever commit.

Shattered Childhood is about 3 young boys, from the age of 6, going through a wave of abuse, while learning about how life really is. They’re pushed to the extreme, until that is, they figure out how to defeat their abuser at the age of 16. It all continues from there. I expect Shattered Childhood to at least touch upon the boys reaching 23-24, before Book 1 is finished. So far, I’m liking the new approach to the book.

I am still doing Book Reviews! School has gotten in the way of reading and I can barely snag a read of Talon before my next class! Also, guess who’s just preordered the new Pokemon Sun game…..me! Except it’s actually a collector’s edition! It’s my first preorder, aha!

Well, I hope you all have had a good week! May luck befall you~

~Connor R. Ryan

Drabble of Writing #1

Thump, goes the heart.

My chest gets tight. I feel dizzy. I’m panicking.

What am I panicking over? I don’t know. I just have the feeling that everything is crashing onto me. That I feel like I’m going to die.

I want to cry. I’m shaking. I hear just a blur of sound. I feel the tears rolling down my face.

Why can’t I just find the ability to not break down and have attacks like these not happen?

Something that’s on my mind at the current time. Anxiety’s building up on me and I don’t know how to solve it.

I feel so bad because I just wanted to have a good night and depression made it feel so…..unhappy for me. I’m rambling, aren’t I?

~Connor R. Ryan

Daily Prompt: Maybe

via Daily Prompt: Maybe

Maybe it wasn’t her time. Maybe it wasn’t the right thing to do.

What happened….maybe it could’ve ended better. It could’ve been worse.

He sat there in pain, maybe grief, drooping his head.

Maybe he should’ve put himself in the line of fire.

Maybe he should’ve taken the kick. Now his daughter was dead. Like his wife before him. And just like how his son and other daughter before him.

Maybe he should’ve taken the activation. Destroying himself to protect his family, to make them live til old age.

Something that happens in Nothing to Lose. Hehe. You won’t know who it is, exactly.

~Connor R. Ryan